You would’ve thought that once you’ve loved someone for over a year, been in a relationship with them for 10 months, broken up with them twice, been cheated on, been lied to and messed around countless times, that you would be beginning to get over them. I wish I could get over him. Even though I know I’m being stupid, clinging on to a tiny bit of hope that he’s changed and loves me as much as he says he does, I can’t help not letting go. 

I wish it was as easy as people who have never been in love think, where you cry for a few days and then open your eyes to how beautiful life is without that person. But it’s nothing like that in real life. These people all spout quotations like “never give up something that made you smile.” He made me smile. Yes, he made me cry a hell of a lot too, but he made me smile too. I wish I could get over him and see how beautiful life is without him, but at the moment to me, life is grey and boring and without any colour or excitement or passion.

One of my good friends is having a relationship with a 22 year old, and quite frankly it has got me worried. At first i was okay with the whole age gap thing, i mean i thought it was a little strange..but what does age matter in love? Now the 22 year old is taking money of my friend for a deposit for a flat nearer him (which he will give my friend a key too, of course.) I am getting increasingly worried. But what can i do? Ruin my friendship because of a gut feeling by telling his parents, or wait until he gets taken advantage of/stolen from or something even worse, and then have to live with the guilt?

Now call me weird but I don’t really see either of them as good options.

I hate the way boys can make you feel so shit so easily and ruin you’re whole evening with one sentence. I sure as hell hope we return the favour.

I wish i understood people but i really don’t. You’d think it would be easy considering we’re all human but people try hard to conceal themselves I guess they’ve gotten to good at it; so now how are we able to separate truth from fiction? For example when a boy who you’ve been on and off with for months decides to flirt with another girl on his facebook -one who he had a thing with- what does it even mean?! Is it just because he’s bitter about an argument you’ve just had,or is it something deeper? I really don’t know.